Wait... Me?
You're asking ME to provide you with an explicit rational answer as to where I now hold in life? Ha, maybe I should start giving out the link of my blog for those who do not know yet how much I dislike answering such questions.
A wise person once said to me: "It's not about being an introvert versus an extrovert, it's about the qualities and capacities that lay within you." The same way, it's not about how I define myself, it's more about what I do and what I aspire to be.
And I know that for many of my friends, no matter how close, the answer to the title question "where do I stand" is a mystery. Perhaps my reasoning is flawed, perhaps I do need to provide some subtitles to my train of thought and action for my friend to follow who I really am. Yet I do not, at least not often enough, and instead I feel the water with people I meet and wait to see what their understanding of me might be.
I'm uncomfortable with the verbal, I'm intolerant of the obvious when stated and I have no patience for the labeling.
Because I have travelled, because I've been gone and back, because I am not the person I once used to be (at least in appearance), I'm aware I easily confuse people. But those mixed feelings are positive.
I am growing,
Have been growing,
And haven't stopped growing.
So where do I stand? Bear with me, for I cannot name it.
I cannot etiquette myself at the moment you ask, for I cannot suspend time nor my journey...
It's like "What are you looking for?" It's not a pencil skirt; it's a potential spouse. How am I supposed to know?
ReplyDeleteso frustrating, and btw, the guy from one of my first post
ReplyDeletehttp://lovesickforg-d.blogspot.com/2011/07/you-dont-know-me-i-dont-know-you-but-i.html (in july) just got engaged!!! lol i was over him a while ago but I have post about him, thats weird!
Kind of in response to this post and some earlier posts of yours, (and Princess L) I came across this gem: "If you don’t know what you want...you end up with a lot you don’t.” ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club
ReplyDeleteAaargh one of my favorite movies!!!! :p
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